Yo. Hola. Yola.
The name is Morgan and the game is growing up.
This is my blog.
And this is an invisible high five:
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
Water from clouds
Today was one of those days where I worked really hard but felt underappreciated, underpaid, and.. well, underdressed because I was cold and wore a hoodie over my shirt. It wasn’t my finest representation. But when I walked outside after work, and it was unexpectedly raining, I was the one with the hood and those that I passed by looked envious. And so I won.
It’s the small victories that keep you going. Or at least dry.
Last Saturday morning overlooking the Thomas Jefferson Memorial. The view was so serene. And the air was so crisp and awakening, it made me want to take as many deep breaths as I physically could.
It’s a nice “bring me back” picture after a long, chaotic Monday. (And now to bed, so I can get up and do that chaotic thing all over again. Blagh.)
I’m having a hard time
Work is off-the-charts stressing me out.
Michael is on different continent.
My next door neighbor passed away.
I don’t really like DC.
I’m giving up cheese.
Yoga always helps me feel better and it didn’t tonight.
I feel like I don’t have time to read for fun.
My grandparents are getting to be that age.
And I’m too far away from them, and the rest of my family.
THE ANGRY THERAPIST: The Power of Purpose
What if I told you that your life is bigger than you? That you are meant to do / change something. Just humor me. Close your eyes and believe for this second that you were meant to change the world in some way. What happens? If you truly believe this, you will feel valuable. Suddenly, your “problems” aren’t so big. Why? You have just turned your dial from taking to giving mode. Turn it back. Instantly your chest concaves as all the worries come flooding back, the unpaid bills, the relationship problems, everything that’s going wrong, everything you wish you had. Now you’re in taking mode, aka obsessing about the future and / or dwelling on the past. You feel the difference? The difference is PURPOSE.
If you believe you have a purpose, your life becomes greater than you. This process allows you to live outside of self. Living inside of self is what causes us to be unhappy because we internalize, scrutinize, worry, predict, prejudge, label, live in the land of what ifs instead of what is.
So you have a choice.
Believe that you have no purpose and be miserable as I was most of my life.
Or
Believe that you do have a purpose and live.
So how does one discover their purpose?
First, accept yourself fully. This includes where you are in your life, your defects, your story. Everything that is you, your problems, your relationships, your insecurities. This process forces you to be honest with yourself. Honesty with self begins a process of rediscovery. You realize what is the false version of you - Pseudo and what is the true version of you - Solid. As you become more solid, you begin to unlock your code. Seeking approval / validation / and false beliefs about yourself has strapped an iron chain around your soul. By living in Solid Self you will begin to unlock that chain. Through this process you will slowly realize what you are good at, what you love, what your gifts are. The more you do this, the more you will believe you have value, that you deserve things, like healthy love. Once you believe you have value and what that value is, you will have purpose.
But it all starts with
Transparency.
Most people can not be transparent because it requires a tremendous amount of courage, which is why most people don’t discover their purpose, which is why most people are unhappy.
How many people do you know live / have lived in Solid Self, without a veneer, do not seek any approval or validation and live purely in their truth? Jesus? Gandhi? Okay, we can’t compare ourselves to them, especially in the world we live in.
So then how many people do you know are trying to do this, today and every day?
That is why we are so unhappy.
- Angry
thank you.
This is how I feel right now. Growing up is hard. Change is hard. Distance is hard. Making decisions is hard. Everything just seems harder than usual. Including accepting these feelings and typing these words. I wasn’t prepared to feel like this today. I’m not very good at it. Do-over, tomorrow.
(Source: deadsurfer)
Let’s put things into perspective: 2010 was not the worst year ever. There have been MUCH worse years. For example, toward the end of the Cretaceous Period, the Earth was struck by an asteroid that wiped out 75 percent of all the species on the planet. Can we honestly say that we had a worse year than those species did? Yes we can, because they were not exposed to Jersey Shore.
70 year-old Buddhist monk Hua Chi has been praying in the same spot at his temple in Tongren, China for over 20 years. His footprints, which are up to 1.2 inches deep in some areas, are the result of performing his prayers up to 3000 times a day. Now that he is 70, he says that he has greatly reduced his quantity of prayers to 1,000 times each day.
The footprints have become a source of inspiration to younger monks at the temple. “Every day I come here and every day I look at the piece of wood, and it has inspired me to continue to make the footprints myself,” Genden Darji, a 29 year-old monk in the monastery, notes.
